Sunday, February 08, 2009

My Blog Is My Home Is My Heart

and all are open.


I share my life here.


I share my creations here.


I tell you this because if you know me you know that I am an open person, I tell the truth, I tell it the way I see it, I share compassionately and I share how I feel. If you know me you also know I am a very reserved person, I don't share my life with everyone, just those around me who matter, those who I care about. I don't carry my heart where all can see it but if you know me you know I share 'me' in a real way and am ready to listen and impart.
If none of this makes any sense then, again, that's me. I say it as I think it, I type as I think and if it flows out of my head out of order then that's how it gets shared.


And why do I share this with you? I am going to share with you something, share it the way that I do. I share because I have to but more on that later and keep in mind tonight I am tired and blogging with raw emotions.

But first...

Today Dave surprised us with a trip to the Regatta after Church. The girls got to do or have one thing each. Elizabeth and Lucy had a go on the clowns, where you put a ball in the mouth, Jessica bought a show bag and Megan decided to have a go on the Gee Whizzer, which Lucy called the Cheese Whizzer. So I went with Megan and when we got off Dave was standing there with 6 more tickets so Megan and I had another go along with everyone else. They all enjoyed it but I think we have discovered a monster that was lurking as it seems Megan is a ride junkie!!
Was a lovely time and a needed distraction from things that have been happening this week.

I learnt this morning some sad news. Now this is where I share with you with my open heart. You see this isn't my story, it isn't my news but I have to share because it is what life is for me right now. I learnt, this morning, that my best friend and her husband, who are in the UK, had a miscarriage and lost their baby. It just made me sad, sad at the news, cried that they are so far away, cried that I miss her so much, cried that I couldn't give them a hug. So this afternoon I scrapped my thoughts to make this page.



Sometimes I just wish that the rollercoaster of emotions would stop, for just a while, so I could be sad. This week has been sadness followed by a time of happiness and so it is with this. You see my best friend's sister in law had their 4th child this morning too. A day to grieve and a day to celebrate. In Death there is Life. Thinking of Bron and Murray.

Ok so now I feel I have blabbled everything out of my head and that is what my blog/my scrapping is about. Just getting stuff out of my head. And right now Dave is playing computer games with Megan and Jessica so it's a little noise and just the excuse I need as to why my thoughts might not be coherent! I need quiet to think and this blog post has too many thoughts that needed to be 'thinked' upon! So I am taking my bleary brain and going to make a coffee.
Taking a breath and pushing the publish post button
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9 comments:

  1. Amanda Aitken8:44 PM

    You are awesome, Charmaine. Thanks for sharing xx

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  2. Anonymous11:58 PM

    I get you.

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  3. we can't have joy without sorrow. we can't have sorrow without joy.

    all things in balance.

    so sorry that you're riding the roller coaster. it is life, yeah?

    mucho hugs for you!

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  4. I am soooooooo sorry for your friends loss....but I am proud of U for being able to bring that BEAUTIFUL LO to life to show some joy! LOVE you Sharmaine....U are amazing friend! :):):):):):)

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  5. I just found your blog and your work is stunning. I love it.

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  6. what a beautiful layout. So sorry for your friend's loss.

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  7. so sorry for their loss. you and i think so much alike. it's easy for me to follow you. i just wish i was as talented as you are in getting it all on paper. you inspire me.

    thanks for your openness and honesty and thanks for always sharing.

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  8. Thank you my beautiful friend. I love you. bron

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  9. love the colours on this!

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